I still remember perfectly the initial days in college. I took very different subjects than my school mates and so we’re hardly together. Obviously I was in need of new friends. But I never try to make someone my friend because it’ll be done intentionally which means that I will be fine with him/her as long as he satisfies my terms and conditions. Hence I never ever try to look out for someone and try to think if we can be good friends (look I was having this logic in my mind for making friends only). So, I found many of them, I was never been such happy; to have a friends circle in college is basic need because your friends will help you push forward. Everything was going so good until one day. When I met a friend who was going to change my entire life. Yes, my entire life, as I concerned. He was one of kind (he still is). He was the only one person who caught me doing my “genetic” job; yes, looking for life companion and all. So, he decided to help me out of this situation. At first, I found this bit uneasy because it was my private thing but when it comes to friend the privacy settings are just fired up!
Then there was nothing no more secret about me. He talked many things. We shared a lot of thoughts; he also told me that he don’t like this love thing, which I found interested. Because I was also not looking for love but the perfect companion! (See there’s a little contradiction between my ideas) Actually it’s not like I was not concerned about love, but I considered it as a further part.
Okay, so one day this friend of mine just observed that I started to like a girl and she was from our class. We shared only two lectures in common. But she just stroked my head in right angle. One thing she was perfect fit for me as she was fulfilling all the required conditions. But you know what this time condition was different; for the first time I was feeling like this and I was not sure about how to handle it. Obviously my friend noticed it and he urged me to go ahead and face this whole new thing, he was the first one who told me the fact that I am in love. But for God swear I was not in love with that girl. My friend completely washed my brain only one clue he got. It was when I talked about that girl more than once. Yes I liked her but doesn’t mean I loved her. But my friend has got some special powers to convince people so he succeeded in convincing me that I am madly in love with her.
Now the chapter of madness! There was no limit in doing mad things and thinking. In few days she was all over my head and I could barely think about anything, she hacked into my mind and she was everywhere. I still remember that how my face got a pure smile if only a red pleasure (Hero Honda bike) passed by me I will consider as if she passed by me and that wind-blown by that bike felt like as if she’s touching me. I tried to get her off my mind but it was getting harder with the time. Just a glimpse of her beauty will helped me survive any trouble I was feeling so good, like never before. I was on the verge of major emotional change but didn’t cared about it. As I was feeling great with this thing going I wished that this shall never end. I was not willing to go further I was hoping that everything should run like this only. But my friend, he was pushing me to go forward. Then I responded him positively because that time I was under the spell of that special magic. Then we started spending time in planning how to initiate the talking with imaginary diva of mine. I placed her so higher in my mind that I could never reach to her. If I sit and start to share how many plans I and my friend made just to say her “hi” you will feel pity on me. Then suddenly I realized that soon all this going to end if I don’t take any action. As the HSC board exam was coming closer which was the end of our junior college days and we’ll be heading to our own destination in different direction. Then I started following her, but never let her notice it. No matter how bad I tried I was unable to make up my mind to go and talk to her. I failed seriously. It was very much hard for me to digest but this is how it ended. Then I declared a blackout till today, that I will never ever try to see her, but as you may know man can never forget his first love… so it lives.